Day 15: Midway Reflections
During a shamanic journey this morning, my team was clear with me that today is a day of reflection.
What are my reflections, having been in this process for the last two weeks?
This process requires me to regularly shift back into the mindset of being a nature spirit in my non-work life. It is easy for me to slip back into “regular human” mode. That does feel like the path of least resistance. But each and every time I drop “regular human” mode and come back to the deeper me, I certainly feel better - relieved, at greater ease, and more connected to life.
It has also been disorienting to share more of my internal process with the world, especially from a professional standpoint. I lean into the “I am a healer” mentality when in session with clients or teaching classes. I do bring up stories from my human process to illustrate teachings, but those are things which all exist in my past. It can easily come across as I’ve got it all figured out when talking about past struggles, and not revealing anything about my current ones.
“No man for any considerable period can wear one face to himself, and another to the multitude, without finally getting bewildered as to which may be the true.”–Nathaniel Hawthorne
Coinciding with that disorientation, sharing my process in this form has also been liberating for me. It has, at times, felt like I’ve put on a mask to be the healer and practitioner. That has kept me separate from others, and myself. A huge part of my approach to my work is to help ground spiritual teachings into the day-to-day for clients and students. Being transparent about this process is, quite naturally, a boon to that end.
Of course, the individual teachings that have come up for me have been wonderful, and have added more depth to my personal practice, more authenticity as my role as a healer, and more fodder for my upcoming book.
Thank you all for coming along for the ride.